Hello again. Last months post was about the meeting between my 2nd son and I had hoped to continue the story of our visit this month, but alas, life has kept me busy this summer. I thought I would just take a few moments to share about what God is saying in my life’s journey.
Summer is typically a time when I let things go around the house. Have tons of “hang out†days with my boys. Plan our week of family vacation. You know, the usual summer stuff. Unless you count reading home school catalogs by the pool as something constructive, I lead a fairly leisurely life during this time of year.
However, this summer God has been speaking to me about getting some things cleaned up and cleared out, in a very literal sense. The journey I have been on is one of clutter and the most unorganized part of my life journey to date. I had to search for the phone number to call the lady I have hired to come help me “dig outâ€. Thank the Lord she comes tomorrow. Strangely enough, I think that all the clutter in my life has come from being in permanent limbo with our 2nd son.
My dear friend, Melanie, heard me make an observation about this correlation and said “Maybe I had something there to deal with emotionally.†Well, that got me to thinking and praying. And what would you know that there is some validity to this clutter and emotional connection.
For me, I first have to get the clutter out and get organized. If I am honest with myself, I truly function better in a clean and clutter free zone. So first, I have tackled the clean portion of my problem. I hired a wonderful lady, Denise, to come into my home and do a deep clean last month. Denise just returned for a monthly clean this past Friday to help me maintain. Can I tell you how much better I feel knowing that my newly crawling little guy is scooting around on much cleaner floors? I feel fantastic. I can keep it maintained. No problem. I am no longer overwhelmed by the fact that the base boards need to be cleaned. Therefore I can deal with other aspects of home life much better.
I love you Denise…..even more than I did before.
Tomorrow comes the beginning to get organized and clutter gone phase. I will start in my oldest son’s room. He is gone to camp this week. He has already given instructions not to throw away this certain football and to please not donate all the stuffed animals. We’ll make our way through the house over the next few days and make plans to help me/us stay clutter free in our new home that we will move into in the fall.
After all this clearing out in the physical, I will head to the beach with 4 very dear friends for a time of relaxing and recharging. This will be the culmination of what I believe God has been working out in me this summer. I am so glad that I have been obedient and begun to clean up my life and home. I am expecting God to clean up the emotional turmoil of waiting 4 years for my beautiful 2nd son. I wouldn’t change Mitchell Feri being my son for anything, but the emotional toll has been huge. I am ready for the Lord to refresh me and fill me up again. I am ready to be the wife, mother, and friend that God intends me to be, again.
If you are feeling overwhelmed or emotionally undone. I encourage you to take a look at your life journey and see what God is saying to you. Then, I challenge you to take action.
Mel, this is an official thank you for the “kick in the pants†I needed. I love you, girl.